I have lots of people telling me how they are glad i'm back to my normal self, thats its good to see me smiling again, seriously people - how bad was I?? The student / mummy combination was bloody hard going, i'm figuring Uni should be easier, not from a work point of view but from a time management one, but the what if's have set in.
aah sod it, will just see what happens - I know the cap and gown are in my future, so will just enjoy the now and worry about the later - later :0)
Thursday 24 June 2010
Sunday 20 June 2010
Good grief I was horrible!!!!!
Yes, yes I was!!! how do people put up with me??? seriously????
Now college has finished I can see what a funk I was in with it all!!! Pressure, pah - I needed a cloning machine, or the ability to split myself in 4! I'm now really happy that I have deferred - the next 15 months are all about me and mine. The past 9 months have also shown me that I need to be more true to myself, I NEED to be happy, because if i'm not the whole family suffers, So I will probably still be my same old diplomatic self - but I will be saying NO a hell of a lot more and I wont apologise for it either.
This is where Saz gets happy!
Now college has finished I can see what a funk I was in with it all!!! Pressure, pah - I needed a cloning machine, or the ability to split myself in 4! I'm now really happy that I have deferred - the next 15 months are all about me and mine. The past 9 months have also shown me that I need to be more true to myself, I NEED to be happy, because if i'm not the whole family suffers, So I will probably still be my same old diplomatic self - but I will be saying NO a hell of a lot more and I wont apologise for it either.
This is where Saz gets happy!
Tuesday 15 June 2010
Tis Done
After many an email and stressification, I have deferred so I now start on the 14th September 2011 - it just gives me time to get my head straight and see how I go, so it gives me plenty of time to collect stationary and stuff and be a little bit more prepared - seeing how fast this year has gone, i'll soon be sat here thinking crikey i'm going to uni in a few months.
So hopefully this will be the start of much less stressed Saz xXx
So hopefully this will be the start of much less stressed Saz xXx
Saturday 12 June 2010
Hello Rock, Hello Hard Place - I am betwix you!!!
*sigh* uni or not uni? put me first or the kids? Defer or plough on ahead? Uni or get a job?
Feel like i need to keep going - but I dont think its right - anxiety attacks for 96 hours now.
Harry ended up in A&E, poor lamb - very under the weather, I dont think I can do this with them being so young, my head hurts, my hearts pounding, cant think straight :0(
1 exam left to go, last one was utter misery, this one has to be better!
Feel like i need to keep going - but I dont think its right - anxiety attacks for 96 hours now.
Harry ended up in A&E, poor lamb - very under the weather, I dont think I can do this with them being so young, my head hurts, my hearts pounding, cant think straight :0(
1 exam left to go, last one was utter misery, this one has to be better!
Friday 11 June 2010
oh blog how I have missed thee
I need to get my arse in gear and start blogging again - mental health slipping not good!
Thursday 3 June 2010
June glorious June!!!!
Well not really
Yesterday the soul was ripped out of my home county, the one place where sheep rustling was the biggest worry, where everyone knows everyone, where you can leave your door unlocked and go to bed. Yesterday for reasons only know to himself a man, decided to end the lives of 12 people, proabably would have been more, if he hadnt have taken his own life. I am so sad and so angry - a senseless waste of life, lives ruined forever and a beautiful place has been tainted forever!! Cumbria has had enough, the floods in Carlisle taking 3 lives, the loss of PC Bill Barker in Workington, the Keswick bus crash last week and now this.
No-one should own a gun unless they need it for work, a taxi driver with a criminal record should not have been allowed to have a sniper rifle and a shot gun. Nothing has been learnt from Dunblaine or Hungerford.
My heart hurts for the people of Cumbria - Love, Light, Strength and Healing for everyone involved, and may the angels and spirits take care of those taken far too soon X
Yesterday the soul was ripped out of my home county, the one place where sheep rustling was the biggest worry, where everyone knows everyone, where you can leave your door unlocked and go to bed. Yesterday for reasons only know to himself a man, decided to end the lives of 12 people, proabably would have been more, if he hadnt have taken his own life. I am so sad and so angry - a senseless waste of life, lives ruined forever and a beautiful place has been tainted forever!! Cumbria has had enough, the floods in Carlisle taking 3 lives, the loss of PC Bill Barker in Workington, the Keswick bus crash last week and now this.
No-one should own a gun unless they need it for work, a taxi driver with a criminal record should not have been allowed to have a sniper rifle and a shot gun. Nothing has been learnt from Dunblaine or Hungerford.
My heart hurts for the people of Cumbria - Love, Light, Strength and Healing for everyone involved, and may the angels and spirits take care of those taken far too soon X
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