i feel crap today, one large brooding hormonal mess, i just want to curl up in a ball and hide - Abbie fell over crossing the road this morning - why dont kids listen when you tell them not to run when crossing the road?????? luckily she landed on the pavement, and gave herself a bit of a fright, so off to school with mucky knees.
Harry screamed all the way home from school today, first off as we weren't walking the way he wanted too, then coss he couldnt walk with Nate, then screamed even more when Emma and Nate caught up with us, the boys were bickering and then started slapping each other - he is so contrary at the moment and its driving me crazy.
Thursday 27 March 2008
Monday 24 March 2008
opened my gob too soon
My blood sugars are going really well she said, Im finding things so much easier now she said, so why the bloody hell did i just get an 11.3mmol off a small cheese bun,apple hot x bun and a yogurt????? arseburgers i forgot the bloody crisps i had too, should have had more insulin, but i was sodding hungry, i will put money on this baby being a boy, I was stunningly hungry with H as well, we will find out soon enough 1.40 on the 12th may.
I say im not bothered about what i have, and im not as long as they are happy and healthy, that is all i care about, so why oh why do i find myself wanting a little girl??? when i thought about having another little person, i thought it would be fantastic to have another little girl , so it would go girl -boy- girl, thus missing out middle child syndrome ( which worries me greatly), but i really really do think this one is another boy, and quite frankly that scares me, dont get me wrong, I love H with all my heart but he is hard work, he gets up really early, is on the go from morning till night, and generally runs me ragged, I love him so much it hurts but i do wish he would take his foot off the accelarator sometimes, I have to assess everywhere we go to see if its H proof, i spend so much time stressing about taking him places, everyone loves him so much, but i can tell they are secretly glad that he is not theirs.
he is a flying headbutt full of Love!
I say im not bothered about what i have, and im not as long as they are happy and healthy, that is all i care about, so why oh why do i find myself wanting a little girl??? when i thought about having another little person, i thought it would be fantastic to have another little girl , so it would go girl -boy- girl, thus missing out middle child syndrome ( which worries me greatly), but i really really do think this one is another boy, and quite frankly that scares me, dont get me wrong, I love H with all my heart but he is hard work, he gets up really early, is on the go from morning till night, and generally runs me ragged, I love him so much it hurts but i do wish he would take his foot off the accelarator sometimes, I have to assess everywhere we go to see if its H proof, i spend so much time stressing about taking him places, everyone loves him so much, but i can tell they are secretly glad that he is not theirs.
he is a flying headbutt full of Love!
Monday 17 March 2008
arseburgers!!!
I got the phone call and im heading to the clinic tomorrow to see about getting some insulin, I know its the best thing for me and the baby, but AARRRGGGHHHHHHH!
sodding carbohydrate!!!!!
So here i am 12+1 weeks pregnant and heading for insulin, i am gutted, i worked so hard to lose weight, and i still cant control my sugar after eating anything carb based - I knew this was a possiblilty if i got pregnant again, but i thought i would at least get to 6 months before it all kicked off again. So here i am waiting for a phone call from the diabetes specialist nurse, i think it could be that i developed impared glucose tolerance last year, really pissed at that one, i lost weight and still got it GRRRRRR
on a up note, Abbie has gone back to school after being off since last tuesday, she is feeling much better, still has a 40 a day cough though, but im sure that will just go in time *crosses everything*
Abbie is very excited about the baby, just hope she will still be as excited when it gets here, Harry couldnt care less, his days are full of being happy, having drinks and gibisses and generally hitting life head on, im hoping against hope he calms down a smidge before spud arrives in Sept, ah well a girl can dream can't she ???????
on a up note, Abbie has gone back to school after being off since last tuesday, she is feeling much better, still has a 40 a day cough though, but im sure that will just go in time *crosses everything*
Abbie is very excited about the baby, just hope she will still be as excited when it gets here, Harry couldnt care less, his days are full of being happy, having drinks and gibisses and generally hitting life head on, im hoping against hope he calms down a smidge before spud arrives in Sept, ah well a girl can dream can't she ???????
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