Monday, 24 March 2008

opened my gob too soon

My blood sugars are going really well she said, Im finding things so much easier now she said, so why the bloody hell did i just get an 11.3mmol off a small cheese bun,apple hot x bun and a yogurt????? arseburgers i forgot the bloody crisps i had too, should have had more insulin, but i was sodding hungry, i will put money on this baby being a boy, I was stunningly hungry with H as well, we will find out soon enough 1.40 on the 12th may.

I say im not bothered about what i have, and im not as long as they are happy and healthy, that is all i care about, so why oh why do i find myself wanting a little girl??? when i thought about having another little person, i thought it would be fantastic to have another little girl , so it would go girl -boy- girl, thus missing out middle child syndrome ( which worries me greatly), but i really really do think this one is another boy, and quite frankly that scares me, dont get me wrong, I love H with all my heart but he is hard work, he gets up really early, is on the go from morning till night, and generally runs me ragged, I love him so much it hurts but i do wish he would take his foot off the accelarator sometimes, I have to assess everywhere we go to see if its H proof, i spend so much time stressing about taking him places, everyone loves him so much, but i can tell they are secretly glad that he is not theirs.

he is a flying headbutt full of Love!

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