Yup - Tits Up big style.
Mothers Day - A day of joyous mothers everywhere, well yeah probably all except this one. All today has done has highlighted to me just a rubbish mum I am. I do the basics, they are well fed, clean and warm, they get kisses and cuddles. I love them but I dont enjoy them. This is what makes me a crap mum.
The plan for today was to have a family day - Ideas tossed about were - All go for lunch / Go for a cake and coffee / just have a good day together. What actually happened was Harry soiled himself, Stew and I had a row, We went to feed the ducks - Harry needed a wee and had to have an al fresco one, Stew stood in dog shit and wasn't best pleased, Phoebe decided she wanted to walk rather than cycle and basically chaos ensues. So we ended up have lunch in silence at home and then me ironing for 2 hours.
All I want is to enjoy my kids. I never asked for depression - all I ever wanted was to be a mummy. I have three lovely children, who have a mentally ill, shouty mummy - I feel so sorry for them.
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