Resolutions and the 365 project - Day One

I've not blogged in forever and I can tell, my mental health isn't the best at the moment - It was in a very good place  when I started work 6 weeks ago; I felt worthy and of value, I felt I was a contributor and not a leech. Over the last 3 weeks I have been feeling very down, a spat with my Dad, problems with work and money problems, and Harry being very unsettled have all conspired to pull me down. I have been punishing myself by eating crappy food and drinking until my liver sobs.

Thats right folks I self harm with food and alcohol - and before anyone thinks I am being overdramatic (if you want to nominate me for an Oscar please do, there are many actors I would like to stalk meet), I am diabetic and instead of losing weight its creeping back up again and it has to stop.

So my major resolution this year is to be kinder to myself, I solemnly swear that I will

• Give myself a break
• Be selfish occasionally
• Have a drink if I want one, but a glass of wine not a bottle
• Realise that creamy food stuffs and wine make me feel sick
• I will eat more heathily
• I will exercise more
• Realise that its okay to have down days
• Stop feeling so chuffing guilty about people and things
• Realise that I cannot control everything ( I'm not superwoman, although it would be a pretty cool super power to have)
• I would also like to run the race for life this year too

I also will do my best to complete my 365 project - this has the aim of blogging everyday. I'm planning on maybe looking at articles and discussing it, or post a photo I find interesting. Some posts will be heart felt and deep thinking, others may just be one word.

And that ^^ ladies and gentlemen is my first 365 post xXx