Last blog of the month

and its a whingy one

School - how chuffing expensive is it to send your kids to school? this month the tally is

• £2.00 for a school lunch x 5
• £1.00 for a school news paper
• £1.00 for a raffle ticket
• £1.00 for a wear it green mufti day x 2
• £1.00 for the last day before easter mufti day x2
• Sponsored read
• and a school disco at some point (infants will take food - Juniors will take cash)
• £8.40 for a school trip into town

I wish the school would just ask for a cash donation per child at the beginning of the school year and thats its  - all covered, giving you time to save up - not just springing it on you with very little notice.

I am not a scrooge - I give to charity when I have the money £5.00 of my hard earned dosh went to comic relief - the Chris Moyles marathon broadcast. I am doing the moonlight walk and the race for life. I love fundraising and helping charities. I just object to passsive agressive letters guilting my kids in to begging me for money - here endeth my rant!

Days off

Thanks to my top bird Linda - Stew and I have had a day off each this month. Linda and her significant other Kev - had a day off a month away from the kids and the family in general.

On my day off - I wrote some fan fiction in Starbucks, drank several caffinated beverages, Meet my uber lovely SIL Hev for lunch ( Dalton Rooms - 2 sandwiches and a bowl of chips for a tenner) Back to Starbucks, for more writing / typing up and then I had my tea in the fortune star ( Chicken fried rice for one). Top off with a visit to the Browns abode for a nosey ( I now have house envy)

Stew has his day off on Sunday - He met Dr Paul for coffee, Mr Neil for lunch and then went boozing and darts with his work cronies.

We are aiming for in the space of 6 weeks to have had a family day, a Saz and Stew day and an individual day off too - just so we dont forget that we are people and more importantly a couple as well as parents.

Thank you Linda and Kev for having such a fab idea ( which I nicked!)

Fic Rec Time

My pick of the moment is

The American vampire series - seriously go read them, just fabulous


Second chance by Chloe Cougar - Interesting premise and fast paced - love it ( and Chloe is a top top goddess type!)


and i'm watching with baited breath to see how this one unfolds
In Vain by Bratty-Vamp 

All the Wild Horses by Elusive twilight  - Again a i'm praying for an update and this has THE hottest lemon i've read in ages, not smutty or porntastic just incredibly well written and I want Rancherward! Yes ladies Edward Cullen in cowboy boots and hat *wibble*

All aboard the depression rollercoaster

Stop the ride I want to get off!!

One minute I'm feeling fine, the next I want to crawl into a hole and hurt myself. This is one part of depression I hate - Compulsive urges, last time the little black dog came to visit, it took me all my time not to shave my hair off simply because it was annoying me - good enough reason no?

I look in the mirror and I really dont like what I see; not just the hair the whole package - the hair not so much as its purple ;0) but this spiral of self loathing isnt helping at the moment as instead of geeing me up and getting me motivated to change its just fueling the fire. Somedays I really cannot understand what Stew sees in me and I cant understand why my friends are my friends ( I am not fishing for compliments, just getting it out of my head). I've taken a few small steps, I am wearing a little bit of makeup when I can and when I do I feel better. I just need to keep taking baby steps I guess.

I have spawned a Del Boy

Abbie is now doing chores for dosh - Well I say that she hasnt done anything since Monday when I made her sort the recycling. The going rate is 50p per chore - lets see how long it is before she starts inventing jobs to do LOL

Time out for Adults

Yep, I've been putting myself on the naughty step - well shutting myself in the kitchen with my Ipod on. For various reason over the past week or so the kids have been at the top of their game and the annoy mummy lesson they must have been taking are paying off. So in an effort to shout less, as soon as Stew comes in and I know the kids are safe I have been shutting myself in the kitchen with the music on to sooth the savage beast. I can safely say its working :0)

The big question is you put kids in time out for one minute for every year they are old ie Harry goes in for 6 minutes. Does it work the same for adults should I be on the naughty step for 36 minutes??

Water for Elephants - not long now *giddy!*

I cannot wait for this film to come out! I may or may not have a bit of a girl crush on Reece Witherspoon - so this film is win win as far as I am concerned. I will not just be perving at the pretty ( honest) I have read the book and its pretty ruddy fabulous. I think this film will help Rob shake off the twilight spectre that follows him everywhere - please note film world - he doesnt just appeal to teens. Anyway dont just take my word for it have a look at the trailer and Roll on the beginning of May

 lol Look at the jaw porn on that!

My Name is Sara and I am addicted to.....

STATIONARY! Bet you thought I was going to say Robert Pattinson didnt you LOL

I love pens and paper, I visit Rymans nearly everytime I go into town

I love stationary in all forms, Pens, Paper, Diaries  - I am truly addicted. Last trip out I bought myself this

Yes ladies and jellybeans I am nearly 37 and I own an Eclipse pencil case and it is full of lovely lovely lovely purple pens with purple ink ( purple makes me happy).

Stationary shopping is one thing that is making me so excited about going to uni - viva la purple pen!!

OMG look at this!!!! Would you want a letter with this on it

I've said it before and I'll say it again...

Blogging everyday is hard!! I've not blogged since the 18th March and now i'm playing catch up. I enjoying blogging, but I genuingly forget to do it. I wrote myself a list of topics that were on my mind and now I am have a Blogspot Wednesday. I can see this being a typical end of month thingy - I need a new mantra


I WILL BLOG EVERYDAY!! I WILL BLOG EVERYDAY (well try and remember too LOL)

Ink Fever

I want more ink, I want more ink, I want more ink, I need more ink - lack of the monetary stuff means no ink at the moment.

This is what I have at the moment

 I want to extend this tattoo  - I want a swirl of stars to go up onto my left shoulder and then diagonally down to my right hip to cover the celtic knot disaster I have there.


Note to self kids - when picking a tattoo dont just pick the first bit off the first bit of flash you come too - Think long and hard and pick something that REALLY means some thing to you - all my other tats have a story behind them. Make sure yours count!

Crisis of Confidence

I hate this - I am currently experiencing one. I am ready to give up

1. Fanfiction writing
2. All ideas of going to uni
3. Facebook and twitter

I want to become a hermit and hide away. I am foolish to have ideas above my station - I am rubbish and I know my place!

I wont give up anything its just an urge that I will not act upon - Pinky swear!

Lenten Fail?

And I quote "Today I have had a sacrificial Wispa and half a pack of Bourbons, as its that time of year to do something different for 40 days and 40 nights. I briefly considered giving up swearing and shouting (Very very briefly - I would explode if I could do neither of these things)

So I am giving up

• Alcohol
• Chocolate
• Bourbon Biscuits

and for the next 40 days I will be TAKING up

• Being kinder to myself
• To say at least one nice thing about myself everyday
• To squish some exercise (other than the school run walk) into everyday.

Its gonna be interesting"

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Lenten Ponderings - the reality!

A hypo wiped out the no chocolate part - It required several chocolate frogs to set me right

The bourbons in the cupboard were taunting me - so I ate the little buggers! That told them, but no further bourbon crackwhore biscuits have been consumed by me.

Being kinder to myself - nope the self loathing is strong with this one

I have completely forgotten to look for the positive and say nice things about myself

See above for the extra exercise.

So not my best Lent really - althought I am still on the no booze wagon - so YAY ME!!!!!!!

Alpha-Dilf

View the Hotness!

Lists, glorious lists!

Lists, GOD BLESS THE LIST!! There is something so satisfying about lists. I have a to do list that is looking like this

• Email DW re uni timetable so I can sort childcare
• Email Disability services at Uclan about my diabetes
• type up blogs ( ooooo I can cross that one of my list)
• Get my tickets in my handbag for tomorrow
• Remember Abbie's spending money
• Do the 500 words for Sam and Peters Creative writing group
• Make a list for my day off.

I am currently working on a couple of more lists - Things to do before I'm forty and anything that I cannot logistically do - lack of money, minions, time etc - they are going on my bucket list. 

Fandoms and Forums

I am troubled at the moment, I feel very uncomfortable. There is a disturbance in the force. Factions of the Fandom are warring and i'm not entirely sure why - I think its a he said/ she said sort of thing.

This is the reason why I am no longer on forums - the written word gets misunderstood (easily done), Friendships are formed - jealously enevitably follows (along with bad spelling and grammar - my bad!), then there are cliches, quiches and secret societies, dummies are spat, bats and balls are taken home and then it all implodes.

Online or in real life you are drawn to some people and not others, tis a fact of life. I do try and be team Switzerland as much as possible (I also have many a spelk in my arse from sitting upon the fence) I hate tension and try and smooth it over as much as I can. I like to think I am a mediator, a calm voice, a peacemaker but in actual fact I am a control freak who spends equal amounts of time in RL and OL. I hate discord, it unsettles me,I have been know to dive in feet first with the oil for the troubled waters and the diplomatic comb for the ruffled feathers.

Twitter is a marvellously fascinating outlet for me, I indulge my inner fangirl with my love of Robert Pattinson, Peter Facinelli, Twilight, Water for Elephants etc etc etc. Its quite funny as you have the nonstens (Rob/Kristen not together) and the Robstens ( R/K are together). Peeps who like Rob but dont like Kristen and vice versa. Its all quite interesting to watch.

My biggest Twitter pet peeve at the moment is the *I found out that Sazzle74 has unfollowed me* shout outs. If I have unfollowed you there is a damn good reason for it, and it will be more than likely one of these.

1. You have tweeted illegally taken pics of celebrities ie Rob and his family - give the boy ( and other celebs) respect and privacy.
2. You are a buffoon - you have said something or several things I have found offensive ( I have a one strike/ benefit of the doubt rule about this)
3. You are bullying someone - I. Hate.Bullies!

So there you have it, I am not a willy nilly unfollower. I have my reasons but don't do the unfollowed me shout out as it makes you look like a dick!! ( wonder how many how many followers I will lose because of this blog)

Teacher Training Day

They sprung this on on us, sneaky devils, it wasn't on the official holiday closure list and the timing is a bit suss too - the day after St Patricks day *strokes chin thoughtfully*. Yes I am sure it had nothing to do with Guiness or whiskey drinking at all**

So a whole day in the house with the minions? I think not! So we went to the post office, dropped off the table top stuff for Stewart, McDonalds and home, then off to the Zone for a play with Linda and the kids. We agreed a time - 1pm - but we sort of glossed over where. Come 1pm I'm at the zone and Linda is sat outside my house LOL we are a pair of dizzy mummies!

We eventually met up and the kids ran riot, it was really good. I think only our school was off, so apart from some babies - the kids had the place to themselves. Linda and I set the world to rights over coffee/tea/slushies and crisps.

Linda had her new and very gorgeous lime green Doctor Martins boots on. They are very lush and very Linda (bright and cheerful not loud and garish - I know what you are thinking!)

Thomas was telling me that Lucy, Abbie and himself are the fab three - they are an elite trio of spies who meet at school at midnight ( no wonder Abbie is so bloody tired!)

We did have a mumming incident - the kids were messing about in the toddler bit (sans toddlers) Then a couple of mummies with toddlers wanted in so they got the manageress to shoo out lot out of there and into the main play area again. The kids complied without question or tantrum (we have trained them well). Linda and I laughed as the manageress looked very apologetic for telling them off. We gave her a huge smile - she looked relieved that we weren't going to kick her head in LOL (We may be slummies but we are pacifist slummies.)

I love Linda to bits - you can have a really good indepth chat with Linda and next minute we can be giggling like school girls because one of us said something rude.

Today we were chatting about Linda's mum, Denise, who is currently undergoing chemo for breast cancer. Her hair has started to fall out but Denise isn't phased at all. She is taking it all with great aplomb and grace and a wicked sense of humour. I am sending her lots of love, light and blessings for a quick fight and speedy recovery.

We also chatted about what we are writing about - Linda has a couple of manuscripts on the go and she is a regular Hubber - Linda is covetting a 'Hub Nugget' - personally I think it sounds quite painful and should require prescription strength cream to clear it up!

I have hubbed (once) and i'm rather scared by it to be honest, I can blather on and on on my blog but Hubs are like proper writing for proper writers like Linda innit!

I love blogging, its my outlet, the 365 project is proving interesting. I'm finding it hard to remember to blog everyday - I seem to be doing it in fits and starts and I'm playing catch up at the moment. Hopefully by the 31st of December 2011 there will be 365 blogs, otherwise I know how I will be spending NYE 2011.

I never know when  inspiration for blogs may hit so I have taken to carrying a pen and paper with me at all times - like now I'm putting the kids to bed. I can get the blog bouncing round my head on to paper and then I can type it up later ( like i am doing now, eating toast and watching celeb juice)

Blimey i'm a Chatty Cathy tonight, So I will sign off this blog and ramble on to my next - Toodle oodles *waves*








** DISCLAIMER - I AM JOKING - THIS IS TONGUE IN CHEEK

Beautiful, colourful days

Today has been one of them - now I dont know if its the tablets or the fact that I had a night nurse induced coma sleep last night but the colours in sunny old Lancaster have been really vivid today - Beautiful blue skies, Fluffy white clouds and patches of  yellow and green with flowering Daffodils. Shame its so chuffing cold though!!!

My day today

http://positivesazzamations.blogspot.com/2011/03/crikey-what-spurt-that-was.html

Fanfiction

Hopefully on Sunday  - dizziness allowing I am going into town to write, I have 4 stories on the go at the moment and this is an update for one of them http://ninjacougar.blogspot.com/2011/03/ooooooooooooooooh-shiney-banner.html. In the meantime if you are in Starbucks and I ignore you, I'm not being horrible I'm just in the zone :0)

I am doing this

http://fandomfightstsunami.blogspot.com/

Sazzledazzled is writing a one shot for charity - its planned in my head and on paper, just need them to talk to me now as I writing it all down :0)

In June

I am doing this

moonlight walk

For St Johns Hospice in Lancaster and i'm doing this to honour the memory of Nan

This was taken 2009 a month or two before we lost her - I miss her her so damn much and she was my nan in law. Absolutely fabulous lady and very sorely missed

I am suffering

with dizziness ( more than usual) I have viral labrynthitus ( middle ear infection) so i'm now on anti dizziness tablets which has side effects of dizziness - seriously!

Forgive the lack of bloggage

is a sod to fight

Lenten Ponderings

Today I have had a sacrificial Wispa and half a pack of Bourbons, as its that time of year to do something different for 40 days and 40 nights. I briefly considered giving up swearing and shouting (Very very briefly - I would explode if I could do neither of these things)

So I am giving up

• Alcohol
• Chocolate
• Bourbon Biscuits

and for the next 40 days I will be TAKING up

• Being kinder to myself
• To say at least one nice thing about myself everyday
• To squish some exercise (other than the school run walk) into everyday.

Its gonna be interesting

Kids

Kids dont talk to you - Kids talk at you NON-STOP

They peck at your head, they dont let you have peace. They are evil  twitterpots hell bent on putting parents into looney bins!

Puppies

Puppies are like crack!

Puppies make you happy and giddy.

We were ambushed by a puppy this morning, a little staffie called Candy and she was just the sweetest little creature EVER

I have had puppy induced smiles all day.


Puppies are canine crack!

Saturday

We (Stew and I) went on a road trip - We went to Windy Harbour to pick up Sam and Les from their Car-rah-van. Then headed over to Clitheroe to see Roberta and Andrew. We had lunch at the Calf's Head.

It was lovely and we feel quite recharged - less like parents and more like Saz and Stew. Tis all good X

Monday Monday

A Sazzamation

Stew cracks a funny

This is sat on the side in my Kitchen - I am sat on the couch drinking a cuppa - Stew is in the kitchen.

Stew - "Saz, since when did you read Vanity Fair?"

Me - "Since it had 'The Pretty' on the front"

Stew - "I never knew you had a thing for alligators BAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAH"

Saz - (mutters) "Knobhead"

Damn Plot Bunnies!!

Damn Bunnies

March started a little like this

it will get better!

Okay so it wasnt technically

28 blogs in 28 days - it was 27 with the intent of posting the 28th. I got distracted............ Ooh look shiney things *runs off*

*runs back* March will have 32 blogs not 31 *runs off again*