OOOOOOO what are those???

I've grown a pair!!! *looks dead proud*

I have sent off all relevent emails, made all relevent phone calls and typed all relevent letters.

I have withdrawn my place on the Radiography course and once that is all sorted, I am applying for Sexual Health Studies.

I have a good feeling about this, if I need to end the course early I will still get some form of certification - i'm working on my personal statement and I've hopefully sorted my references out too.

Watch this space

I'm slipping

I'm behind on my blog challenge so this is 1 of the 3 I owe.

Its actually harder to do than I originally thought. Blog everyday you say?? not a problem I say.

PFFT I know nowt! On days where there is plenty to do - time just runs away, I need more hours in the day. The extra one I got today wasn't enough - I need more, or failing that I need a clone 

My daughter is a poet and we all know it

My Eldest is a published author *puffs chest out with motherly pride* She has had an acrostic poem published, she is mad keen on writing these now and I want to share the one she wrote for me.

Monkey is what she calls Phoebe
Us lot make her shout
Many People are her friends
.
Loves Robert Pattinson
.
Always shouting
Twitting all the time
Knowing a lot
Incredible at telling us off
Naggy a lot.

My name isnt really Mum L Atkin - its Sara L Atkin, But what the hell  - i'm very proud of my Crabigail, and its scary how nothing escapes the notice of a nearly 8 year old

Good god I love her ( when i'm not shouting at her obviously!)

Stop looking at me!!

My Blog background keeps looking at me, its most off putting!!! Well not off putting just very distracting  - this is my 3rd attempt at this blog!

Am I going to change it? Hell no! get rid of the sex stares you must be joking!

The main reason for this post is I came across this clip the other day
http://www.thecelebritytruth.com/tom-cruises-les-grossman-preps-robert-pattinson-mtv-awards/0017235

Not only is he incredibly good looking he will also take the piss out of himself *sigh*

I find this a very attractive quality, the ability to make people laugh - I absolutely adore Eddie Izzard, Stephen Fry, Michael Palin and many many more. So guys here is something else to consider - a way to a womans heart might just be through her funny bone!

Progress

Today I rang UCAS to see what I need to do about applying for a different course.

Its surprisingly simple! I just need to ring UCUM and formally request that my place be withdrawn and then I re-register and then apply to UCLAN for the BSc (Hons) Sexual Health Studies.

I really am a giant fanny, I should so go with my gut rather than my head, as Inner Saz is a worrysome biatch and really needs to relax more.

I originally looked at the SHS course last year but because I had to self fund, I decided against it, and opted for Radiography instead. Now dont get me wrong - Radiography is fabulous and very very interesting and once qualified the hours would be very family friendly, but the Devil in me - is thinking Fuck it - do what is right for me.Then the biatch that is mummy guilt kicks in and Inner Saz starts chipping away at my resolve again.

*sigh* I really really need to grow a pair and start looking after me, So who wants to ring UCUM for me tomorrow? and who wants to ring my tutor Shelia and ask her for a reference, cos i'm scared

Slipping in just before midnight

I've literally just got into bed - when I realised I hadn't done my blog of the day (Bad Saz)

Those who are of faint heart do not worry I am clad head to foot in the finest polyester, so you need not worry about me blogging in the buff!

I have had a good mummy day today - a nice lazy start to the morning then off to safe play at Preston with the kids. My lovely fellow slummy Lucy organised it and it was mucho fun.
http://www.spcllp.co.uk/
The kids had a whale of a time and really let off some steam, but the best thing for me was being able to take them somewhere where they could let off steam and throughly enjoy themselves without reprisals from yummies. All of us there today has one member of the family who had an additional need - All of us have had some run in or comment made about our child or behaviour of. Its soul destroying, it really is. I hate taking the kids especially Harry to soft play places  - I shouldnt have to feel like that, I love my kids dearly, but I am a mum and my role is to protect my babies, so watch out yummies you comment on my kids and I might just have to comment on you. This is not my first run in with yummies - I give you exhibit A


http://sazzleswitterings.blogspot.com/2010/02/watch-out-yummies-slummy-mummy-coming.html

I'm hoping that we get to do something like this again, I can honestly say its the first time in a long time that I have truly enjoyed a trip out with my kids and that is really quite depressing. I really need to grow a pair and develope my fuck it attitude - wonder if they do courses like that at college????

In the meantime I have to confess that I have a crush on Anthony "blue" Wiggle - this wont be news to some, and to others it will cause shock and dismay! but I am totally owning my crush  - so deal with it LOL

Today

I went to Carlisle, the place of my birth, my home for the first 7 years of my life.

Mum, Me, Eldest, Middle and Small went to visit Shirley monster (My Gran). It was a short, sweet but very stressful. Middle decided to draw a ruddy great stick figure in brown wax crayon on Shirleys nice new cream carpet!!!!! Fuck sake that boy will be the death of me - now before you wield your harsh mummy stick - I need to say that my grandmother isnt the nicest human being on the planet ( put away the bad granddaughter stick too) She isnt the nice, cuddly doesnt matter if you make a mess kind of granny. She is the dont touch that, dont breath on my nik-naks, use a coaster kind of Granny. I dont actually remember the last time if ever she told me she loves me.

She is all for show and that hurts, I met a friend of hers today and she told me that she had heard a lot about me and the kids, I jokingly said "All good I hope!" "No" was my grans reply. There are loads of biddys in Carlisle that think our family are Satan spawn - we are not we are just keeping our distance from the mental and emotional hassle we get.

She is single handedly the reason why I never use the word Stupid in the same sentence as my children. I am her only grandaughter (the other 5 are boys) and I have told i'm stupid and fat on more than one occasion, she is a charmer isnt she!!

So lets just say i'm not as angry with Middle for drawing on the carpet as I should be!

Better late than never

Yesterday - I went to Uclan to their open day, and now i'm all fired up about sexual health studies.

I'm taking baby steps with this, I need to make phone calls and fire off emails, I'm excited about this but i'm not going to get all giddy until i know there is something to be giddy about.

Watch this space - I could be getting paid to say willy and fanny *giggles*

Spirits dont just come in glasses

I've just been to a charity psychic evening at the RLI with my lovely friend Samantha, and a good time was had by all. We didnt get a reading, but it matters not. Marilyn gave words of comfort and humour to people in the room that needed it most.

I know not what your beliefs are but I am a big believer in spirits (not just the alcoholic type). I have had a fair few readings with Marilyn and others and they have always told me things that NO-ONE outside of my family would know, and given that I originate from Carlisle, and now currently reside in Lancaster. This info cannot be common knowledge.

So here I state my beliefs - I believe in spirits and angels, I am what you would call a spiritualist but I have great respect for others beliefs and I love talking to others about their beliefs. So if you wanna know anything just ask.

Parents evening - blog spree day 3

Its that time of year again - to sit in tiny chairs and cluck over the spawns' school work.

Spawn 1 always interrigates us as to what we looked at and what we liked best, and what did the teacher say - our reply this year: He said you are horrible and you smell, and dad farted on your chair - she is mildly unimpressed with us and more so when I said that Dad had wee'd on your chair as well (We are truly horrid Parents)

Spawn 2 could not give a shite but is happy regardless.

Both of the spawn are doing well Spawn 1 needs her confidence building and Spawn 2 has been earmarked for ELS - a class based support programme to give him a bit of a boost, so watch this space as they say

tired

I've had a good day today, time on my own, time to catch up with lovely college peeps, some decisions made - not all and i've had my shakespear cherry popped. This was quite bewildering but also incredibly enjoyable. I want to write so much more but the lack of sleep because of the lodged not so happy pill is catching up with me

Love, light and blessing Peeps XXX

30 Day Challenge

My lovely lovely friend has challenged me to a blog for 30 days kinda thing - so this is me stepping up to the plate. I will apologise now, I cant guarentee quality, but here's hoping on the quantity!!


I did something I never ever do - I told Stew that he has upset me at some point earlier in the day - usual saz would bring this up in around 3 months time, so for me to broach it within 14 hours is a pretty big thing for me!!

Look at me guys - i'm growing :0)

Fan Fic!!!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!

I have been dragged into the world of Fan Fic and I love it - these are some of my favourite ( in no particular order!)


http://kharizzmatik-ep.blogspot.com/2009/08/prologue.html - EPIC!!!



http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6113033/1/Unexpected_Love - this is my tweetie pie Janine - she has a big future ahead of her I love her writing it just draws you in! Janine you rock!! love you hun XXX


http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5072648/1/Edward_Wallbanger -  you want Sexy Edward! this one is guarenteed to ignite your pants!

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5853742/1/The_Cullen_Campaign - another pant igniter!

The first fan fic I ever read and i've read it a gazillion times!!!
http://twilightandliteracy.webs.com/ifirstdayofschool.htm


I've been inspired to write my own - its on paper and needs typing up....................but watch this space!! In the mean time have a look at these links the writings bloody fanfictastic!

I'm on a roll!!!! Breaking Dawn this time

400 days till the release of Breaking Dawn and I cant fecking wait!!

There is already a lot of expectation on this film, lots of peeps want to see the ins and outs of the honeymoon (So to Speak) I'm not sure I want to - hints of it will do me!!

I have pondered a lot how they will spilt it into 2 films, where will they stop it? In my head Renesmee is delivered Jacob has imprinted, you can hear Bella's heart racing and stop and then she opens her eyes - end of part one! Part two picks up with Bella getting used to her new life.


I have high hopes of this film and i'm so glad its the same scriptwriter!! I have a few ponders over the casting choices - they are all so hot and good looking! Garrett in my head is older gray hair with a beard, so is Alistair - more akin to Carlisle than to Edward, but I have every faith it will be a good film.

Moonlight swim Edward and feathers a plenty to look forward to in the mean while - hubba hubba!!!!

Oh bugger, i'm going to have to read all the books again now!

Pit 'o'despair

Once again I'm in it.

I would love just one week where everything I planned went to plan - but no! Not for Saz. I feel shite for moaning, there are people I know and love who are in far worse situations at the moment. There are people who I dont know who are in far worse situations than I am.

I feel like a failure ( yes I know i'm not before the whoopass starts) but thats how I feel. Sometimes I wish I could disapear and let Stew and the kids find someone who would be better for them.

I wish I could stop feeling Guilty - Guilty for not going to see Uncle Eric before he died, Guilty for what happened to the first baby, for not being able to breastfeed Abbie, for getting an infection that nearly killed me, for hating harry when i carried him, for being so fat I ended up with gestational diabetes and which more than likely caused his ASD and Pheebz VSD

Gestational diabetes

Diabetes in the mother during pregnancy is a significant risk factor for autism; a 2009 meta-analysis found that gestational diabetes was associated with a twofold increased risk. Although diabetes causes metabolic and hormonal abnormalities and oxidative stress, no biological mechanism is known for the association between gestational diabetes and autism risk.^[20]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Causes_of_autism
http://www.articlesbase.com/diseases-and-conditions-articles/the-infant-risk-factor-of-gestational-diabetes-693952.html

Guilty for not being able to breastfeed Phoebe, Guilty for all the shit I put my family throught with my depression, I feel guilty for taking time for myself - i'm a mum first and foremost

and I feel guilty for feeling guilty - I wish I knew how to stop it, my life would be a damn sight fucking easier!!

My thoughts on all beard related things

The boy is absolutely ruddy ovary twitching, knicker meltingly gorgeous! This lovely young man has knocked Hugh Jackman off the top of my celebs who I wish I could list, ( go on be honest everyone has a list like that - husbeasts includes Halle Berry and Kylie Minogue).

There is a lot of furore about his beard at the moment, Last night he was spotted clean shaven after weeks of hobo hotness, women everywhere are either dancing for joy or sobbing into their cornflakes. I am going to put my two penneth in.............................. as hot as hobo Robster is I prefer either clean shaven or stubbly Rob, but just because he has a beard you can hide a badger in doesnt mean you like him any the less. you could put the boy in a bin bag and he could still ignite panties at 20 paces!! everyone has their own favourite Rob look, if he turned up at your door asking for a snog and he had a beard would you honestly say no???? I bloody wouldn't! Those who like the badger look would you say no if he turned up clean shaven and begging you for a snog????? hhmmmm no I didnt think so.

At the end of the day his face, his beautiful, beautiful face *sigh*  his choice, what ever make him happy, we dont own him, we admire from a far, we lust, we tremble, we buy everything he has ever done so we can watch him any chance we get.

Now i'm oblivious to most things and this week a few, quite frankly epic rob blogs have closed because of the haters! seriously haters get a grip. I dont like Tom Cruise, but I dont hunt down blogs and harrass them, I pay him no heed, I have no interest in letting peeps know my opinion of him, unless I am asked, I dont think people who like him have mental issues, just different taste to me, and this brings me on to my final rant

Dating or not ( I think they are) what business is it of ours??? you can tell with some photos that they love each other, well good for them, yes we are all jealous that she gets the Rob loving experience that we all wish we could have, but she makes him happy and thats what we all want, Happy Rob = Happy Rob fans.

So those who hate her, seriously guys she makes him happy - look at her as your brothers/bff/sisters other half who you're not overly keen on but you know makes them happy, so cut them some slack! any way feel sorry a little bit for the poor lass, we get gorgeous red carpet Rob, she gets bleary eyed /fag/coffee breath first thing in the morning Rob, she gets pukey after too much drink Rob, She gets farty Rob, she gets bad mood Rob. So cut her some slack = Kristen has a fecking hawt boyf who we would sell our own children for just to sniff him , or is that just me? she doesnt need to be hated by people for having the bloody good fortune of being Rob's girlfriend - good luck to them I say!
Oh and one last thing - dont get offended but ladies we cant lament the lack of Rob/Robsten pics and support the anti-pap bill at the same time.

I will leave you with a few of my favourite Rob shots  - enjoy :0)